Saturday, January 27, 2007
Woes of a renter
I hate renting a house. I always feel like I have to keep the place pristine or we're going to get evicted. And I don't like people in my house. He** I don't like people I
know in my house most times, let alone someone I don't know who could potentially throw me out of it. LOL
It would seem that I'm still having a certain level of free-floating anxiety from The Summer of '05. The psychiatric nurse practitioner who was managing my meds left the practice, so I had to get a new one. This time they gave me to an actual psychiatrist. It's a guy this time. He seems nice enough, but you know (well some of you know) how it is when you go in for the first meeting with the new shrink. They have to go through the whole list of questions and dig up all the crap you have conveniently stuffed into boxes in the back of your head. It was a tough morning. But after about an hour of it, he determined that I still have issues to deal with, this anxiety being one of them, and that if I can't go to therapy on a regualr basis, I should at least go to the library and do some reading on the subject. Well, I do have a book that I got when I was still going to my therapist that I haven't read yet. I suppose I can tuck into that and see where it gets me. He did say that I was doing remarkably well considering, which is good, I suppose. I'm actually thinking about one of the things he suggested which is to start a savings account and put a little bit into it every week. He said that it would offer a certain level of psychological reassurance, just having it even if there wasn't a whole lot in there. There might be some validity to that, I suppose.
I did get all the 403Bs I've started at various jobs together and start putting money into the one I have at my current job. Pretty much I just put my raise into it, which is fine. It is sort of reassuring to know there will be a little something something there when I'm too old to work. We were going to sell the house to buy our retirement condo, but that didn't work out so well.
Which brings me back to the hate renting thing. I'm starting to kind of look forward to buying a new house. I know Aidan is because she REALLY wants a puppy and as soon as we get our own house we told her she can get a puppy. A small to medium sized puppy. LOL John's mom sent us the music boxes that Aunt Pat left him and there was a little collie dog statue that plays As Time Goes By that Aidan really liked. So John gave it to her and she has been carrying it around and petting it. Oy. I'm trying to encourage her to think more along the lines of Basset Hounds or Dachshunds.
The landlord lives in Mass and comes up on the weekends because there's an apartment over the garage that he stays in. UGH He's here this weekend and discovered that his pipes froze and burst. So he had to come in the house, go down in the basement and turn off the water so he could cap off the pipe in his apartment. And he's been going in and out of the basement for a while now. It's a walk out basement so he hasn't had to go through the house thank the gods. I just get the creepiest feeling having someone in my house. **blech** AND I can't do the laundry, Aidan can't take her bath, John can't wash the dishes...cause the
water's turned off!!! Did I mention I really hate this?
Anyhoo, there's my whine for the day. Hee Peace out.
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2 Comments:
OMG! i just found this page by clicking thru links on other pages...i am bored and lazy beyond recognition today. anyhow... the word THERAPIST for some reason just jumped out at me. i have been under psychiatric care, meds therapy.. the whole shebang.. for years.... and it never occured to me that the word therapist actually says... THE RAPIST !!! no wonder you feel so awful and violated after they pick at your freakin mind the way they do. THE RAPIST. well. who knew?
anyhow. have a good day. :)
DANG! I had never looked at it like that before either, but it totally works. It does kind of feel like that when you're done.
Thanks! And thanks for reading. :D
