In Remembrance of Me: Another day

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Another day

We're in our new house. Well, not our house, our rented house. But it's nice. The kids like it. They have their own rooms and that seems to be working pretty well. Ian is getting to the stage now where he likes to have privacy. Which is cool. My baby boy is growing up. He's going to be starting the first grade is a couple weeks. *sigh* I left a message for his teacher to see if I can get a sit down with her beforehand. The hadn't assigned teachers at the time of his PET so I haven't met her yet. I've heard good things about her, though, and I've heard she's had a kid with AS before so that could be a good thing. We'll see.

Aidan is going "upstairs" into Mrs. B's class this year. Preschool. *sigh sigh* For the longest time she didn't want to go. She keeps saying she doesn't want to be five, she wants to stay four forever. But when we were talking last night during Dora the Explorer she told me that she and Mrs. B. had a nice talk and now she's really excited about preschool. This is also a good thing. Night before last I asked her if she had fun at school and she says "Yeah" I ask "Who did you play with?" because she has like 8 best friends and 7 of them are boys. She says "Devin". He's currently at the top of the best friend list, having knocked Dax out of that position last week. So I foolishly say "What did you and Devin do?" And just as pleased as punch she tells me "We pulled down our pants and showed each other our pee things." I KNOW, I KNOW! It's perfectly normal, just curiosity about the differences between boys and girls, it means NOTHING sexual. It is NOT a precursor to my daughter being a cheerleader. Still, I've been researching nunnerys. John has been plotting ways to get rid of Devin. LOLOL So as not to encourage the behavior by over reacting, I tell her that she shouldn't do that because it's not good manners. We are supposed to keep out private parts private. That seemed to work because last night at dinner she said "I had a good day at school today" and I say that's great, what did you do?" and she says "I didn't pull my pants down and show my pee thing." I gave her much praise and extra jelly on her bread and butter. LOLOL

I left my job. It was making me crazy. Ok crazier. I'm looking for something a bit less stressful perhaps part time, til I get better. I've had a ton of interviews, I actually just got a call from IDEXX for an interview next week. I haven't called them back yet. I have a second interview for a Case Management agency, office support, small office. Tomorrow morning. Hopefully this one will work out. I actually think it'll be a good place for me for a while. I don't want to go the for-profit route if I don't have to. The last time I interviewed for a for-profit I left halfway through. I just knew it wasn't going to work out from the way the chick was talking. A person has got to know their limitations. I have come to terms with the fact that I can't function in a corporate environment.

I also have a shrink appointment tomorrow. I think the main thing I have come to realize from the shrink visits so far is that I have a LOT of anger. I'm not quite sure where it all comes from or what to do to get rid of it, but I know now that it's there. I am a VERY angry person with a really short fuse right now. *yuck* My shrink thinks that it may take 1 to 3 years to get me fixed. I think he may be a bit optimistic. I really don't know.

One day at a time.