Wednesday, December 17, 2003
I don't listen to the radio much anymore. Today's music mostly just sucks. So I generally listen to Old Time Radio programs on tape. Sometimes I will listen to classic country if the mood strikes me, or new age/celtic stuff. But for some reason when I was driving home from Augusta last night I was flipping through the channels and I happened upon
BLM and they were playing "Whole Lotta Love" by Led Zepplin.
It was great. I remembered the old days in high school partying and running around and doing all kinds of stupid, reprehensible things that I really should regret. But I don't. I don't regret driving the back roads out in Pine Ridge Forest, leaning out the car window passing a six pack to the car next to us when we were both doing about 60 miles an hour on a dirt road. I don't regret picking up a couple of guys at the grocery store and dancing on the hood of my car in the middle of nowhere in the middle of the night. Going to halloween parties and skipping out, prowling the streets of Manito at all ungodly hours just talking and looking for something to do...
I suppose if something bad would have happened I wouldn't have such fond memories of my misspent youth. Well, something really bad like I lost a limb or something or if someone had gotten killed I would probably regret it now. But nothing really bad happened and I don't. I suppose that as a mother that is a bad attitude to have. From a completely "responsible for two other human beings" perspective it's not a good thing to look back with nostalgia to telling your parents you are going one place then go to a completely different town in the opposite direction to visit your friend's boyfriend who lives on his own with a roomate. But I had fun. I drank too much and put myself in dangerous situations. But I had fun. There is a little piece of my brain that is sad that I can't recommend this behavior to my kids. (BAD kimber BAD!!!)
Not that I'm deluding myself into thinking they won't try it but I know all the tricks so it will cut down on their success rate tremendously.
I guess there is just something satisfying about being able to look back and say that I actually experienced my youth. I wasn't just sitting around twiddling my thumbs watching TV all day. (Granted I did a lot of that too. And reading books, I did a WHOLE lot of reading.) But I did actually get out and do some stuff. I was in band, I did some sports and I did a lot of hanging out. And I think I gained a great deal of value from that time spent getting into no good.
Which leads me back to that bad little part of my brain that wants my kids to be able to get into a little bit of no good. But I'm their mother and I'm supposed to keep them from getting into no good at all costs. But it's fun and it has some valuable life lessons to teach. But it can be dangerous and really bad things can happen.
CR**!! LOLOL
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